REVENGE

Wow… what a day… I told you this blog wasn’t for the light hearted.

I won’t go into all the gory details but revenge is a horrible thing especially when it hurts others.

I admitted in my first blog that I am a lesbian.  Just admitting that makes me a monster in some people eyes.   I don’t understand that.   Why does being gay make you think I am immoral, a bad parent, an unproductive citizen, non-Christian, prone to poor decisions, and a bad influence?  Why?  Do you know many gay people?  Are the ones you know monsters?  You probably know more than you think because they are afraid of the stereotype put on them so they don’t announce it… Nor should they, you don’t go around announcing you are heterosexual do you?

Even if you think that same sex relationships are a sin…. Do you think the same way about obese people?  Gluttony is a sin.  Do you think that all overweight people are going to hell?  Do you look at them with disgust?  Whisper about them…. I have said it many times… we have gossips, alcoholics, gluttons, and porn addicts teaching our Sunday School classes but if you are openly gay… you are not even welcome to attend Sunday service without being ridiculed….

How about you… are you without sin?  Does that make you a bad parent?  And unproductive citizen?  Prone to bad decisions and chaos? Non-Christian? A bad influence? 

For the record, I do not believe that loving same sex relationships are sin in God’s eyes. 

Revenge is what takes place when one person in hurt and they want to get even.  We start out hurt, and then we get angry.  This is the normal healing process denial, hurt, anger, forgiveness.  But we don’t go on to forgiveness…  We go on to revenge…  Revenge does not help anyone, not even the person who is acting out.

“But, just as with hiding the hurt, revenge does not heal the hurt either. That’s because all hurt, at its core, is simply a reminder of your essential human vulnerability and helplessness. Even if you kill the person who hurts you, you still remain vulnerable to another attack from someone else. With all revenge, then, you might temporarily feel powerful, but the feeling is just an illusion. No matter what you do, you remain vulnerable to attack from anyone, anywhere.” http://www.chastitysf.com/healing.htm

Right now my family is being victimized by someone with a vengeful heart… someone seeking revenge for their hurt.  I pray for that person, and I pray for our family to survive this hurt. 

We have already been through so much but I guess they say “God doesn’t give you any more than you can handle”  He has a lot more faith in me than I do right now, but I’m gonna be strong and prove him right.