I woke up so early today (5:30)…laying here saying to myself “go back to sleep!!” My thoughts turned to you. So many times I have had current events topics or life issues that I wanted to write about but I have not found the time.
Back in January I posted a blog about changes… boy was I right. My life has changed drastically in the last couple months… back in July I decided that it wasn’t in the best interest of my kids for me to work 50+ hours including 3 evenings and Sundays. My daughter was adamant about coming to live with me (which I didn’t think would happen) and getting in trouble, plus I was missing their events. I wanted to be more available for them. So I embarked on the job hunt adventure. In January I started getting interviews from the millions of applications I had put in. As you know I worked for and with my family so it made me sad to think about leaving there. Along with the downfalls of the job there were equal benefits: like working daily with my sister who has become my best friend and my dad who I adore, plus a lot of contact with my mom who is pretty special too. (Family is a very important part in my life. I have said before that they accept me and LOVE me for who I am and for that I am truly blessed.) Not to mention my customers.
Since then…. In February I took a new job which I started in March. Sounds like I should have had plenty of time to write…right? Monday thru Friday 8-5…but I ended up staying at the grocery part time for most of March, helping out and training my replacement. AND my daughter came to live with me. This last week was my first 40 hour week and I spent it catching up on some things that needed done….and was planning on sleeping in this morning. J
The changes in my life have been bittersweet to say the least. The situation surrounding my daughter coming to live with me was less than favorable but we play with the hand we are dealt and I am loving having her here! (Any mothers of present or past teenage daughters email me for the details so I can learn from other situations: what works and what doesn't....)
Life changes….I was just sitting here in deep contemplation over my life in the last 3 years…. I think I’m finally on the downward side of the huge mountain I was looking at 3 years ago. I guess my motto of “pretend no more” is panning out. I am happier today than I have been in my whole life and that is saying something because my life has not been a bad one.
Being who we are brings a peace that surpasses understanding… I know that is a Bible reference… Phil 4:6-9. Put it all in God’s hands and do as He directs you only then will things will work out and you will have peace.(angi’s paraphrase) I can only believe that is what is happening in my life. 3 years ago next month I begged God to take this thorn from me. Cried for months and let people tell me this was not God's will for my life. I believe God wanted me to be who I am and wanted me to stop pretending to be who I was. I put it all in His hands. Oh its not all rainbows and butterflies (whose is?)…and I have made alot of mistakes (who hasn't?)....but it is a life worth living and working out every day!!
